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The uniform is washed, ironed and hung back up in the wardrobe, the Christmas nibbles are making an appearance and we plan on living in nothing but our pyjamas for the next couple of weeks. This year is so different for everyone, and because of that it hasn’t really felt like Christmas to me until today, I mean, I love being festive and we’ve had the tree up since early November but I guess it’s just been a fake it ’til you make it situ for me until now. Anyone would think we’ve spent enough time at home this year but the break from the school routine was much needed for me! I’m starting to think a lot about this year now it’s coming to an end and I’m really digging deep to think about the things I’m grateful for and things I/we have achieved this year – the ultimate being that we are all here and healthy obviously, but when you really sit and think about it there is so much we can all be thankful for.

I’ve panicked and stressed over this Christmas more than I usually would which has done me no favours at all, but now I’m in a much more positive place with it all. I think it’s just been the uncertainty of it all, would we be able to see our loved ones? will the shops be open so I can buy gifts? is everyone going to stockpile again? I’m always quite organised anyway when it comes to Christmas so in hindsight I probably didn’t need to stress as much as I have done but that’s easy for me to say when my anxiety isn’t rearing it’s ugly head, I think not just as parents but as human beings in general we can be so harsh on ourselves sometimes and although I don’t ever make new years resolutions as such, in 2021 I want to be kinder to myself and stop beating myself up over the tiniest of things.

I cannot wait to get the big Christmas food shop done and indulge in the ‘special’ things that we don’t get all year round, and being all cosied up on the sofa watching the kids pester Ash for a screwdriver and the battery box with a Christmas Special of some kind on the TV. I could waffle on for an age but I haven’t yet wrapped a single present of the kids so I best crack on. Whatever you find yourself doing this Christmas just go easy on yourself, reach out if you need too, embrace how different this year is and strip it back to what really matters.

Merry Christmas,

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Hey…. strangers!

It feels so good to be back tapping away, so so good. I’ve been wanting to come back for a while now but we’ve just had lots going on of which you’ll find out about as I catch up with posts for sure. So firstly, some of you may remember my blog post re: severe constipation with Lil and how we were coping with it… well, not very well is the answer. I wont say too much about it here as I am going to do one big post once we have answers (her operation is tomorrow – eeeeek) but to cut a long story short it’s not constipation and never was, it’s actually something a lot more serious since her vomit also contained clotted blood. We’ve had a stint in hospital and Lil has been having two weekly appointments/meetings at our local hospital and has an operation to find out what’s going on tomorrow, at Birmingham Childrens Hospital. I’m a huge ball of anxiety regarding this however that’s not the only thing we’ve got going on right now – I’m no longer a stay at home mom, woop! I mean, I’ve loved my time at home with Lil and feel so lucky and blessed to have spent her first years earth side completely with her and we could have carried it on but I think by doing so the contented feeling we have within the family would have gone out the window on my part as I’ve so been wanting to get my foot back in the door of Health and Social Care to refresh my own knowledge and skills but also to further my career, it’s happening and I’m uber excited about it. Finally the 3rd and probably the biggest change in our lives right now is that I’m currently growing Lils baby brother or sister. I know I know, we could have timed it better with starting a new job and Lil being in hospital a lot but a blessing is a blessing and I believe we are all dealt certain cards in life for a reason.

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There are some changes in the way that I blog now which I had to consider and think about long and hard before coming back. Whilst I’ll remain with absolutely zero filter I will be a little more reserved with what I post. You’ll still see me and Lily but some photos I wont be sharing as I do just want to keep some things back for the four of us as a family. I’ve decided to take more control over who I let view our lives, but I just couldn’t keep myself away from writing, my brain felt more messy and a lot less organised with all of my ideas and thoughts bouncing around with nowhere to go and be productive.

I also documented the first few months of Lils life on a blog too so I sort of want the same for this baby, that and the fact we’re coming up to my favourite time of year with all the festivities and I love sharing what we do, our crafts, our parties, our hacks, money saving tips etc, so that is that… for now! Catch you later guys,

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School’s Out For Christmas!

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