I’m a little bit late in to the month with my ‘Happy New Year’ post but we have lockdown 3.0 and home schooling a six y/o with a toddler in tow to blame for that. My god, I was glad to see the back of 2020 however nothing much has changed, I’m certainly not starting the year as we mean to go on, locked down unable to see my loved ones. This lockdown is tougher for us there’s no doubt about it – I didn’t realise how much I took for granted being able to sit in the garden and do school work during the first lockdown when we needed to switch the the change of scenery.

I’ve said before I’m not really one for new years resolutions but I knew that this year I wanted to change a few things, the first one being to stop beating myself up, I’ve always been my own biggest critic and I wouldn’t dream of being as harsh to anybody else as I am to myself, so I decided I was going to go easy on myself, and to stop saying sorry for things that are out of my control – I bug myself with that one but I just can’t seem to help it. I’m probably one of the very dew (if any) that doesn’t mind home schooling but that doesn’t mean it hasn’t been stressful and anywhere near a similar standard that Lily’s used too – Teddy want’s to do whatever Lily’s doing meaning he’s often gate crashing and with Ash being at work, it leaves only me to try and become everything that is being asked of us parents, and it’s just not possible all of the time, and that’s okay. Another thing I wanted to stick too this year was my writing, it really helps to get my thoughts down either on paper or on my blog, so I treated myself to a new bullet journal and stationary, then began doodling!

We celebrated Lily’s 6th birthday on Monday and apart from her party she didn’t know any different, we still had a fab time and I don’t quite know how I have a six year old? it’s been the best six years. I’m hoping our holidays still go ahead this year, we’re due to be going to Venice in April and have a caravan holiday booked for the summer holidays but who knows with the uncertainty of everything right now – we all have a lot of making up to do I think! I’ve been collecting bits and bobs for Lily’s bedroom for the past year now, again with both kids at home on my own I’ve not really had chance to decorate but I’m making time now, even if I have to roller and gloss through the night, it’s getting done.

Lots of love,