A Different Kinda January.

I’ve never been one to set any new years resolutions and I definitely don’t buy the whole ‘new year new me’ thing but after finding myself back on anti depressants shortly before Christmas I told myself that I would start 2020 differently to how I have every other year. The first week of January has been a slow one as Lily is only just returning to school tomorrow on the 8th, so there’s been no clean eating or early get ups here as yet, we’ve made the most of duvet days and trashy TV (mainly Gavin & Stacey on repeat x100 – our favourite!) with the left over Christmas goodies (Lil’s found herself quite partial to J2o’s and childrens wine aka Schloer!)

I start buying in the January sales for the coming Christmas as I just find it takes the strain off a little and makes Christmas shopping enjoyable rather than a chore, but at the same time I haven’t gone tooooo mad as I wanted to try something which I’ve seen a lot of people talk about – no spend days. No spend days are pretty self explanatory and whilst you have kids they could prove quite hard to do but there was no better time for me to try this than now as we have all of our essentials stocked up from our big Christmas supermarket shop therefore meals are planned, nappies and wipes are already in and the toiletries/cleaning cupboards are full. As most of you will know we are (slowly) renovating and I have a major soft spot for home decor buying but I’m putting it all aside until February…. even more so because we have Lily’s birthday later on this month and children’s birthdays these days are something else!!

Talking of Lily, she’s back at school tomorrow and how emotional I feel about it is on par with starting a new school year in September, I really don’t want her to go back. One thing I tried to do more of during Christmas and New Year is reflect, I think it’s super important to do so and this Christmas Lily’s understood more and because of that she’s not just opened presents and that’s that, she’s said thank you for them, she’s shown us she understands the purpose of giving but not giving to recieve, she’s woke up in a morning and asked if Dad’s at work so we can watch a movie as a family with all of the lovely Christmas food and drinks in that we don’t usually buy all year round and we’ve danced around the kitchen like loons to random requests we’ve all given to Alexa (one thing I won’t miss is Lil saying ‘Alexa, play Jojo Siwa’ ha!) I feel like Christmas 2019 was the year that memories were made for her and traditions were set in stone for her and not just us as parents…. if that makes sense.

I’m determined not to put any pressure on myself to feel anything that doesn’t come naturally this year, like I said I don’t set resolutions and things but I do just want to make the commitment to myself to ‘work on me’ and be the greatest, happiest version of myself so that my babies benefit from that entirely. Fully aware I’m going off on a tangent now as ever, so I’ll leave it there. Happy New Year everyone, be kind to yourselves!

With Love,